JIAHUI

I know i've been nelgecting my livejournal for several years.
kick it, who cares anyways. bye. haha. update someother time when i in the mood.

I gotta feeling, that tonight is gona be a good night :)

Tuesday night! AWWW.

Im happy :D:D:D

ahhhh.

Blogger is still in the "i'm not right in the mind state" HAHA. SO i've decided to post my entry here.

GREAT. im done with uccd and ssm. Progression of projects was smooth sailing and not pressurizing. I'm glad that i was on schedule and yes, more to come and you've got to pull your socks up, jiahui.

Rwps ppt and submission of report
submission of schizophrenia and ppt.
gems test

Pwetty hectic still. I'm feeling so lethargic right now.
I'm deprived of sleep and videos. life is a bitch. haha.

Friday is a chore, I almost fell asleeep while i work. Lectures were enduring and painstaking. Gems was alright. Talks about cancer and stuff. I start to worry for my dad's health. zzz. Let's modify our lifestyles! eat more vegetables and fibre. (wth, why am i so optimistic in promoting good health now -.- ) haha. Gems tutor was like explaining how radiation kill cancerous cell when he reemphaized again that the rouge cell is F-up. hahah The class burst into laughter when he used that analogy to described how messed up the cell is. following which, we watched a video on this operation where a group of doctors were performing this brain operation on this man, in efforts to remove the tumor from his brian

Guess what, the man was expected to be awake throughout the operation while the doctors opened up his skull.
HOW FREAKKING CREEPING CAN THAT BE!!!!!!! Imagine your brain opened, raw, with fluid and blood flowing through and your skull somewhere else and you're still expected to talk while your brain is exposed ! gosh. Jiamin and me acted like some little kids who couldnt withstand the gruesome images. I peaked everynow and then, saw the exposed brain and the extraction of tumor which resembles like a bunch of mushrooms.

I'm glad i survived through the cilp. hahaha *clap clap

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I had psychology thursday night when we were expected to list down criterias of our partner.
I said i like sad lonely, mysterious guy. I didnt include the intelligence and skinny criteria  though, and she said the match making agency may pair me up with criminals cause im the type who may find criminals deep, sophisticated and charismatic. hahaha. Funny.

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I want to watch My girl. All over again. Gona borrow the dics from jiamin. 


 
* It's too obvious jiahui!
- Boring. I need some ________________ . whatever. you fill in the blanks.
AHHHHHHHHH. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

one more thing. Im so quiet thesedays i find myself peculiar. i hate talking at home. i don't want to talk. when my brother and mum comes into my room and start talking to me, i find them really, irritating and annoying.

what is happening to me. Oh.

I need to do something, i HAVE to do something bt im feeling so restless now.
it was after fma paper the 6 of us went mrt station together. Eventually, i have to leave them while i go on the usual 45 mins ride home alone. yes. Alone. :(
( i'm tired spending all my time alone..)

strangely, i actually went to read my previous entries. i've no idea why. im behaving in a strange manner right now.
Im just feeling contemplative. come to think of it, it has been 2 years since i've graduated,from ai and a year since i last step into the school premises. i miss my secondary days and friends.

I m kinda stuck. freaking stuck.
the subconscious me is being contradicting now
i want to go back now, im not turning back, i wish i can go back, i can;t go back, i miss going back, i hate going back, i've no intention of turning back, im moving on, i have to move on, im accelerating, exacerbating. im fallling soon.


i need to run away . hate the world im living in right now.
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what i need is a place i can hide and wail..
Looking back, i feel nostalgic and sad. looking at myself right now. im pretty screwed up and sad.

Today's a bad day. :( 

I got to know a bad, a devastating news.
I'm here, complaining about how stressful my life is when i don't picture myself in an adult position. particularly, if i have 4 children, with the eldest currently studying in Australia, a number of companies pending for closure, retrenchment of employees, millions of debts to be cleared, mortgage of assets, the thought of i may lose all my houses should i declare bankrupt...  with pessimistic thoughts going on and on. branching out to younger brother who's currently working under his company, his livelihood will be jeopardised, in addition of gambling debts he had yet to pay... goes on to children, who are still in their teens, young adults.....

I shouldnt complain right now. What i am going through is considered puny compared to ...
I worry. i felt helpless. If only im rich enough to tide over their financial crisis. I pray, in return and hopes that everything will go smoothly. All these while, i thought recession doesn't concern me at all, but now, i finally realize how devastating the effects of recession are.
I feel bad, worse when memories flashes back to years, or a year ago.

If only im rich. i'll do anything to help them.

Perhaps she's in turmoil right now. Perhaps everyone in the family are aware of their current family situation.
I just wish she can be oblivious to everything and stay sheltered in the arms of her boyfriend. Her boyfriend is the one who's able to provide her the sense of security . i hope she can confide in me . she'll stay strong and brace herself in times of crisis...

JT. i. miss. you. i want to fly to where you are now. and see if you're alright.
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may god bless them with strength and power to move on . tide over this crisis. *
 

YES. I JUST READ SOOMPI AND FOUND OUT THAT YUNHO IS GOING TO BE THE CAST FOR DRAMA : HEADING TO THE GROUND.
Previously, there were rumors circulating the net that yunho is going to cast in dramas. the rumor was then crushed / justified by SM when they say there's no such plans for yunho. NOW! ALL HAIL! MBC had confirmed YUNHO as the lead for this drama and this will premiere 9th september!

XOXOXOXOXOX.

I dying of happiness ©.©

NOT dying of happiness actually more of dying of too many things to do! @.@ Anyways. i was taking some pictures from magazine when i decided to change it's brightness and contrast. Now, the pictures look fantastic! haha. im bragging and wasting your time reading this part cause i;ve no idea what to write.

in addition. i think i just bought starbucks for $1. I gave the cashier $6 when she return me a $5 change? i didnt realise when i got home. I'm blessed! muhahaha.

- ah. take it or leave it. it's your choice.
xoxoxo, byeee Y

GREAT . im suppose to have my psychology lesson from 6 to 9 when i was asked to go home. SSM lecture halt to a stop when this lecturer came in and asked us to go home. Stayed back to get uccd report printed. Got frustrated because of the china woman working in printing shop. Screamed at jocelyn. We stared and glared at her. She gave this you-pissed-me-off face. I thought it was rather look at me, im an old spinster! I  Oh well, eventually we presented the report proudly to our tutor.

I was asked to go back home :(

byan asked me if i happen to see his calculator around. he descibed his calculator with the word "bitch" . my reply was : maybe the china woman took it cause you wrote her name on your calculator.
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- what's happening to me. i hope im not falling in xxxx.

Marketing research was fun for today ^^ we came up with brand for our apparels, known as Zoka, a well established fashion line in Zimbabwe. Attaching a brand to it makes it more interesting for us to work on the questionaire. im just pleased and excited for spontaneously coming up with a brand.

I think im jinx. I took this test in facebook - what is the birthday month of your crush?
Jingya took the test before me and her results turn out to be MAY. i took the test in hope that my results will not turn out to be August. to my HORROR (to think i used the word horror again) ,3 out of 4 turns out to be august when i repeated the test.
This goes to show that the test is absolutely not true. heh

I feel accomplished for completing a number of things for today
1. Uccd presentation slides
2. Uccd summary
3. Gems revision
4. Worked on my part for psychology (geeezzz there's more to go)
5. Answers and Questions for schizophrenia.

Tickles for today. we were randomly talking about jonas brothers when i started singing paranoid non stop, repeating the same few lines over and over again.
" That's why my ex is still my ex" & " I'm freaking out "
For the rest of the song, i merely filled in with some random lyrcis which everyone finds it irritating. haha

k. im quite satisfied for today *wide grin

"Where'd you go, i miss you so
Sometimes it seems forever that you've been gone"

-- i changed my overall layout for my livejournal. so sweet and cute right?
just like the owner of the blog. HAHA.

xoxo.
bye

K. I know my livejournal was pronounce dead some time ago, fear not, it revived!
Blogger is cranking up and it's so weird and frustrating,

The month of July was indeed a hectic one. Barely have the time to breathe. Anyway, still coping well and doing fine.
(used words that are pretty neutral)

I'm not very sure if i mention anything about my adaptor. nevertheless, the agenda for bringing up this is to credit my dad! Three cheers to him for being capable of fixing my faulty adaptor. It would have cost $110 for me to replace a new adaptor, instead, my dad replaced the wire for only $12!!!!  ^^v
Awesome !!!!!!!! muhahaha. Gleeeeee

YES. for some random reasons, i have this spontaneous urge to re-read My sisters keeper. so i went to the usual cabinet to look for the book. To my HORROR ! (haha. used the word horror =.=) i see no sisters keeper. i frantically went to search for the book high and low, practically combed the entire house just to find my book. I even texted possible people i can think of.
In the end (thank god!), guess where my book is with -- jingya !!!!!
mixture of feelings, glad and dumb . -.-
SEEEEE memory cannot be trusted.

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So weird so weird so weird.
I'll stare into the empty chat box and wonder what i should start.
I'll anticipate if i will catch you randomly so as in anticipation of getting a direct eye contact with you
I can't stop thinking of what's going on in your life right now
Are you lonely? Sad?
im just wondering - is there any way i can enter into your world.

Don't ask me why. im just in a bad mood.

my electronic devices are failing me, and that includes my laptop, my mouse, my earphones
and yeh you're right my freaking brother is irritating me. he acts like some damn pampered prince in the house who doesn't do anything except play and sleep. he's such a bore, an annoyance of my life. gosh. what can i do to STOP THOSE ELECTRONIC DEVICES FROM SPOILAGE? DAMN IT . IM SO FULL OF FRUSTRATIONS NOW.

how i wish yunho was here to do some poppin' moves to keep me happy.
Or, someone.

haissssss.. i realise the huge fluctuations in my emotions. yessss. i push all the blame to my hormones. Damn you hormones can you behave yourself ?

yes and the virus number gets bigger and bigger by day.
Yes. sp should be alright , free of h1n1 .
Yes. tomorrow will be a better day :) - i wish

Let me pray then. bye

As suggests by the subject,
Well. All those are just reminisces, im not turning back im closing doors.

:)
im relieved :))))

This is an important self note!

From today onwards. im Going to be really studious ! hoh
Cleanse mysef from those materialistic desires. They're my unforgiven and terrible rashes. Purify with spiritual holy water that bless me with the will and self discipline to study and stay focus.

I think i'll laugh next time when i revise my entries but so far so good, im going to be really hardworking. Bless me with the power and strength to obtain a GPA 4 again.

Listen to my prayers and i'll mediate

:)

I'm feeling restricted and confined.
I'm uncertain and doubtful
I'm moodless and draggy
My head is spinning and pounding

I am frustrated, so i became grumpy.
I miss my cousin an janelle :(

In another word, im suffering from some emotional disorder.

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Let me Update  my livejournal before i turn in

Fop for this week - fun and totally ridiculous.  pretty sure i'm labelled as the crazy, insane, weird, over friendly, hyper girl in my class. HAH! didn't expect myself to be PHUA CHU KANG? I entertained myself and the rest  , the phua chu kang spirit - the joker of all times.

Well AS for my sunday classes, i began to grow fond of my students, though i tell myself not to get so emotionally attached to them. they were well behaved today. it melts when i see two of my students hugging each other when they're at loggerheads over trival stuff. I mean, afterall, they're still kids, Naive and innocent, they don't bear grudges. Aww sweettttttttt

Caught 17 again and zac efron blew me away.. the storyline was the opposite of !3 going 30  and i love that show! :)
As for 17 again, the main focus is The male lead, so i didnt bother about the storyline . He was absoutely charming when he did those confessions-  i dont need condoms and the court thing. haha!
& after this movie, i envy Vanessa Hudgens from the bottom of my heart

Alright school starts in 24 hrs time! :)

CANT WAIT! GOSH

I want to get so many things!!!! If only there's such lucky draws, and im that lucky enough to get them all! haha

BAG!

Shoes





Basics





 
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SANTA WHERE ARE YOU!?
HOW I WISH IT'S CHRISTMAS NOW

Yes Yes! Day out with Dba/06(08) was splendid! awesome Company with them.

Yes, Siti and me were pissed off. 
Whatever, we shall do it in a Gossip girl's way.

out with the group was a blast ! Laughed non stop since we got into the class with siti and the gang, to pastamania, to forever 21 to gloria jeans..

Miss them. Gona miss yixiu and jerry once school starts.
I Dont feel complete with the two of them. :(

Train down to orchard and meet up with the other half of the class. Ate nothing cause wasn't feeling hungry after the pastamania and gloria jeans.

Tired and i need to sleeppppppppppp

MY DEAR ZIHUI! HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!
Finally, at the age of 18, full of vibes and freedom, other than the official indication you're allowed to take in alcohol, or watch M18 movies, at the same time, you yourself have to be free of unwanted troubles and stress. it's you to decide if you'll be happy or miserable. Take 18 years of age as an excuse and enjoy your life!
Stay cheerful and energetic always. Text me when you feel like crapping, or talking to me, i;ll be at all ears! It's not easy to stay in contact after a year of hectic schoolwork, cca and commitments. I'm still glad we can still open up to each other after so long
Quantity doesn't matter, it's the quality that counts :)
I bless you with EXTRA/addtional knowledge and intelligence; Emotional intelligence and smiles!
:)
Love ya, happy 18th birthday!

Hey, i gave a new look my livejournal again :D

This shall be the last post before i head over causeway border!!!!

I had finished watching gossip girl season 1 and flower over boys/ boys over flower, whatever you name it...
Well, gossip girl was uh kinda, hmmmm. i dont know . the thing is i do not expect any breakup between dan and serena and i think they are going to get together in season 2. Hopefully.
Flower over boys was, kinda again, not very rich? why am i using that word. i queer. definitely out of my mind. i was expecting more, in another words.

arghhhh. ep 24 come quickly and may that be a real good one. im pinning everything onto the last one

Sounds like im in this gamble or whatever.

HAHHHHH

:)

i may/may not blog.

Just starting to get a little bored staring into my laptop for once since hols starts. gna head for self enrichment once i get back. no time to lose anymore!

Miss me like i say
i know you love me!
XOXO
(this is sooooo gossip girl! lol)

bye :)

Heyyo! back from hiatus!

Sick luuurhhhhhhhhhhhh

Well on Friday, The LIMS GATHERING! Spent most of the time talking crapping and baking!
the last time the 5 of us get together was like.. more than 6 months ago!  Sometimes, it's either zihui or siling who cannot make it. sometimes, zhiyu.. but , im really grateful that everyone managed to meet up during this hols. :)
You know, something amazing about us is that, after hanging out for almost 5 years going 6, we sort of have this telepathy in us. the THREE of us, zihui, zhiyu and me thought of BAKING or doing anything related to that.

Went to siling house and do a little baking and stuff. had waffles and the "huat kuey" look a like muffin! the thing was, i didnt enjoy eating that day - flu bug hit me and suffered from some throat discomfort. :( i do enjoy the part i made the waffles! they said i wasnt doing anything (frankly speaking i was too legarthic to do anything so i practically sat there and sang some stupid korean/english songs)

zhiyu and i were talkng about making an ultra thin waffle when it reminds US of sanitary pads!

Me: Eh im going to make a ultra thin one for tonight, overnight use
Zhiyu : Make a thicker one later, for 2 nights use
Me: WE can make Pampers for baby use, i think can use for 1 week
Zhiyu: Eh, you'll can wear pampers?
Me: Why not -.-

Crapping for 1 or so minute , while on the other jiaying at the other side of the table spreading nutella onto her waffle..

Me: Why not let's make a Tampoon!?

Everyone burst out laughing & jiaying offered her waffle with nutella to siling/zihui cause she think it reminds her of period. haha

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Zhiyu and i went to play hotel626, while the other freaked out!
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Took pictures, alot! using webcam and posing weird and hilarious pictures. Me and zhiyu were the focus! HAHAHAAH. REALLY FUNNY I SWEAR!
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Applied nail polish on zhiyu's toe and i left without cleaning up. :D
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The five of us have always been really open and true to each other and that's what i really liked about them :)
5 years being together addressing each other as siblings, still counting. :)
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Sick lurhhh these days. which explains that i haven been updating since i got my results.
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GETWELLSOON JIAHUI!
ANYWAYS! IM LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA AND WILL BE BACK AFTER 4TH APRIL!
OH MY GOODNESS. i totally cant wait. I've been waiting for this since hols, to be exact before my last paper ends last semester! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
SCREAMS!

Miss meeeee while im gone
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MISS ME MUCH MORE WHEN YOU MISS ME!
what the crap -.-

I'll miss American next top model, American idol and the korean drama broadcasted on channel U every weekends and me gossip girl! haha
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I took this personality test , whats your personality love style

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

YESYES. perhaps ya, and this is why me, at the age of 17 going 18 have yet to find my beloved.
however, i sense it, prince charming approaching! hahaha *like real -.-

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byebye :)